JOINING THE CRAZE.

Jaykay, no tumblr for me. And actually, no more blog spot.

I retire from blogging, at least for a while. I don't really need to spill my emotions out, for no reason. I guess that's what friends are for, and I guess, it's what growing up is all about.

I've been growing up alot lately, and you know what, I need to change. I can't just be a bitch about it, and put it up here, hoping someone reads it, and confronts me, or something. I guess, idk.

Well, this time is the last time, to vent out. This is making me sad. I feel like for the past couple months, my life has been documented here. That everything important that has happened to me, has been put down on this place. My own personal journal. My own little bubble, to claim and sort my feelings. It's sad. Hahaha.

It's going to be hard not blogging, but older generations have survived without it. It's just one more step towards becoming a man. HAHA. Maybe one day, I'll just explode with emotion, and I'll need to put something down. Maybe here, or maybe on tumblr. Tumblr always looked so nice to me, but, I already have parts of my history as a teenager here. And I personally pick history > looks, when it comes to blogs. Hahaha.

It's funny, cause everyone's making a tumblr. Maybe I should make one. Idk. Maybe in time. But blogspot, you've been like, a human being to me. HAHAHAHAHA.

WHATTHEFUCK. THAT SHOWS HOW FUCKING SAD I WAS. HAHAHAHAHAHA. When no one was awake, and no one would listen, you would open up, and just let me spill. HAHAHA.

If blogspot were a human, we would be at like, 8th base right now. Hmmmm.

I don't want this blog to end D: My head is throbbing from the anticipation to close this chapter of my life. I feel like, I'm gonna be unstable without this port to shout out my feelings.

Maybe I'm just being a bitch. I've been a pretty big one lately, anyway. Hahaha.

Well, one last emotional trip, here it goes...

What is something, that my heart has been aching to scream. Hmmm...

I'm not ready to grow up. I was a little kid when I started this blog, and I still am. I've grown in alot of ways, but I still feel puny, I still feel that hole in my soul. But there is hope, cause I can feel that hole closing, you know? It's being filled with new-found passions, new people, new friends, old friends, my future, my family, my ever-so-thoughfilled mind, the tears, my fears, and my decisions.

I'll shape into a good person one day, just watch me.

Until then, goodbye blogspot. You have worked my thoughts out in so many ways. I could call you a brother I never had. HAHAHA.

I retire from blogging. For now.

Goodnight everyone, I love you all, and I miss the people who don't really talk to me anymore. I want to change that. I want to keep you an important part of my life.

LOLOLOL, I wonder what you think of this blog, Kirby-at-the-age-of-40. HAHAHAHA.

Just remember that your life kicked ass as a teenager, no matter how negative you feel. You had amazing friends, you had fun jobs, your summers are full of stories, your dreams and wishes have been fulfilled, you were as generous as you could be, you were as nice as you could be, you tried not to be annoying, you made people smile, you made people laugh, and that every morning, you woke up, and smiled and laughed too. And that your family loved you, and that people care about you, no matter what. Your teenage life, was the best it could be. Hahaha. Just so you know, Kirby-at-the-age-of-40, you cried alot at the age of 17. You realized so many things. You started to grow up. And you were proud of who you were. Wherever you are right now, Kirby, you better still be laughing and smiling. You better still be the best you can be. You better love your family, and you better be Kirby.

Goodbye, I love you guys.

Manaloto, out.

10/20/09 10:54 PM =]