How, anti-climactic.

Did I spell that right? Idk.

Well, today was really fun. And I thought that it would still be crazy even at this time.

Actually, right now, it is 11:17 pm, or 23:17, military time. I got to get used to that for work. Hahaha.

Well, it is 11:17 pm, and life is so quiet right now. I thought about my day, and my life lately, and how great it's been, but once the sound of music stopped, all I could hear was the ticking of my clock. A clock that I don't even use for time, but for more, "nostalgic" purposes. It was just like, a realization that when my life gets quiet, all I can think about is time, making me waste time.

However, when I'm with my friends, and fill my life with music and happiness, everything sails on by, nice and smooth. It's really nice to know that that's how my life is, but yet, I fell some sort of, emptiness. It's weird.

Well, today at Manfest, I did some thinking. Alot of thinking. I think, I need to change. I need to apply myself to not only other things, but to myself even more. All this talk about spiritual battle, and brotherhood, is really hitting me hard.

Pretty much, I am losing. Losing really bad. I need to do something about myself.

Hmmm. Well, I worked on Sunday! And yesterday too! It was really nice. I got to meet new people, and also see some familiar faces. It's pretty chill right now, but I have heard that it ends up sucking so bad. I'm sort of looking forward to it, though. All I've been thinking about is my first paycheck. It seems like nothing else matters till then, and nothing else will matter after. It's gonna be lol when I start to realize more about now, and past my first paycheck.

What else is on my mind...Well, I don't really feel like being sad, but I feel a little bit of sorrow in me. Every time I see you, I think of a certain something, and it makes me sad. It makes me, lose hope. Actually, this pretty much applies to every one in my life. Maybe my optimism isn't good enough. Maybe my thoughts are just too overwhelming.

Uhhh, idk. I'm lonely right nao, so I was being boring. Sorry for wasting your time. Goodnight.

Manaloto, out.