Offerings to the doomed.

Is a yu-gi-oh! card. HAHAHA.

Hmmm....

I always find myself asking, "What does he have, that I could never have given to you?" That question is constantly in my mind. No matter how much I've moved on, that was a question that was never answered. Why couldn't we work out? Was it from my personal faults, or yours? Or maybe insecurities? It's something I will never forget. Something that will stick in my mind until the day it is answered, or until the day I die.

I mean, I know we were always like uneasy, Hahaha. But I mean, when I left for Vegas, I really thought that when I came back, things would be perfect. But then, they weren't. I came back. Everything changed. It was like you just wanted to avoid me. It was really weird. I didn't like it. I couldn't do anything about it. Your mind was set. Then you found David.

I don't know David personally, but from what I have heard from you, he is a very good guy. I'm glad he treats you right, doesn't cheat or lie to you, and doesn't only want you for "the goods". At least, that's what you say. I just hope he treats you as well as you want. As long as lifes like that, then I'll be happy.

Maybe David has things that he can offer you, like love and compassion. Love and compassion that you did not see in me. Rather, wanted to see, or maybe didn't believe was not achievable with me. I don't mind if you thought/think that, because we are all humans, and are entitled to our own feelings and thoughts.

Though we never "loved" each other, I still consider you my first love. You changed me into the guy that I am today. Everything I did back then, change and everything, I did for you. I'm glad I did change, although it wasn't for myself. I would be alot more immature.

What I don't like though, is how you say we can't be "good friends" anymore. I mean, it's not I who is at fault. It is you. I am not the one who makes it weird. You're the one who has just become so different. You're so dismissive, and won't accept that things are different because of you, and some of the other girls. I don't want to put you all in the same ship, but some of you are. But I can't put the blame solely on you guys. I'm pretty sure us guys went wrong somewhere along the line.

Idk. I don't know where I am going with this, nor will you ever read this. I don't think I used nor right. Hahaha.

I just wish we could have a nice conversation about this. I'd much rather want that, then to run various scenarios of "maybe this is the reason why" throughout my head. I want to make things right. I want to be a friend of yours again. Someone you can go to and have a nice talk with, or go to for help. I am here for you, and I want you to know.

Wendelyn Flores Chan, why didn't we work out?

Goodnight. Manaloto, out.