Aeris' theme.

Opened up the doorway to my flaws. And those words too. And these thoughts.

I think I have lost a lot of hope in myself.

A lot of hope that I had been growing for the past couple days and weeks. The courage to be someone. To just change, and become someone better.

But I feel like all of that has vanished. Like, I am just back at square zero. Like, maybe all the negative thoughts I always think will come true one day.

But I don't even care. I feel like I won't even care about myself at all when that time comes. Cause I surely am losing hope right now.

I wish I could be more positive. I wish that someone held my hand throughout my whole life. To guide me through everything. To make things easier. I think, I am just too emotional.

I wish I was more like you. Calm and cool, and just not having a care in the world.

I don't know what to do. I wish I wasn't such a fag sometimes.

Goodnight Universe.