Thump Thump.

Have you ever saw something, and just felt weak hearted? Man. My heart feels like dew dew right now. I feel like, I just want to cry and go to sleep. Like I don't even care about anything anymore. I just want this feeling to go away. Is it that damn hard, really. Hah, it's funny, cause I'm trembling.

I wish I could see this situation from another persons point of view. Maybe it would make things easier, make it seem like I'm not at fault. No matter how weak I feel right now, I know that everything was my fault. I need to accept that. I always feel like I do. Like I know I did everything wrong, and that I'll just have to let God and the future guide my life. But the thought of my failure always lingers in my mind.

I'm trembling really bad now. Hah. I really hate this. I feel like the world is watching me, and I'm just a TV show. Like everyone is playing with me. One day, everyone will just be like "Hey! Your life was meaningless, because it's just a low rate, piece of crap show."

I wish my life was like that, cause then I wouldn't have to take THAT to heart.

I'm stupid, and ugly. Kay, bye.