Whoa Whoa Whoa!

Don't you love it when someone says something, and then you say something, and then they change their words? I love that. I love it so much. Don't you love when people say something SO sarcastic to you, it pisses you off? Especially when you don't even feel like you did anything wrong? Even when MY OWN birthday doesn't go as planned either? Opps, getting too specific here. Maybe I should just shut my mouth.

Oh, I also love it sooooo much when people just make things worse. I love it when things go from bad to worse. How could you not love that? You must have a heart if you don't.

Man, I love Jazz. HAHAHA.

Enough of that, time to laugh about myself. Kirby, one day you'll read these, and lulz your face off.

"TEAM BATUCADA, WHO, WHO, WHO!"
Tony Da Shizzle
Seriously, are you a man jw.
Daniel's the _ _ _ _ of the group. HAHAHA.
Google. Everynight, just to find it. HAHAHA.

Man. I don't want to sleep. I feel alone. I feel so, empty. I feel like no one cares about me. But everyone' sleeping, so I should sleep too. I don't like to be alone at night, cause my mind wanders. I feel bad about alot of things, but at the same time, I could care less. I think I'm becoming more and more heartless.

I always think about you, Bomban. You're a really good friend of mine. You have become such a Business Brother to me. You're honestly one of my bestfriends. It'd be cool if we were closer, if you knew more about me, and if I knew more about you. But I'd get boring, Hah. And I don't wanna seem gay. I just wish I had someone to always talk to and lulz with. You're the closest thing to a bestfriend I have left. I feel like I'm not even funny or interesting anymore to anyone.

Tyler, you make me feel funny and important. I like to hang out with you, cause sometimes I feel like you look up to me. But why would anyone look up to someone like me? Pointless, cause I'm such a :[. I want to hangout with you more, but I don't want you to think I'm annoying. Hahaha. Oh well. I guess this is how my lifes gonna be until I grow up.

Ronnie, I've been thinking about you alot. I always think about what you said about me in your blog on myspace. It made me happy you still think about me like that, but I feel like I'm just boring to you too. I feel like I can't be funny at all anymore. Everything I once had has left me. I feel like, you were envious of me because I was funny and well-liked, but I should say, I am none of those anymore. Hahaha.

Marlon, I've thought about you alot too. I feel like if I can make you LOL really hard, then I am funny. But I think about making people laugh too much now, I feel like I can't. HAHAHA. Oh well. You know what? I say oh well too much. I think I should start changing.

Maybe this is the part in my life, where I grow up? Where I stop being a little girl. I stop bitching about small things. Where I become a Mr. and not a boy.

I also think alot about you Kevin. You're really funny, and I wish I could be like you. Everyone thinks of you as such a funny guy, and I am just so jealous of you. I really wish I could be like that. Hahaha. I liked when we walked to school together, cause I felt like we were getting closer. You were the bestfriend I needed. But I guess I did get boring. HAHAHA.

I think I do need a bestfriend. Someone who relies on me, and I can rely on. Someone who cares about me, and wants to see what I'm doing, just so we can chill. I feel like I've got nothing much left. Hahaha.

I always find my self saying, I wish I had a relationship like (Marlon and Ronnie) (Darryl and Tyler) and other people I can't think of. I wish I did. But maybe I think too hard. Maybe this brain I was bestowed with is jut a burden. I wish I was more simpleminded.

I dont even know where this blog is going. I'm sorry. I want someone to read you, but no one might. So I guess this is all I can say for now.

Goodnight.